Choices

I made a choice on Monday evening to send a message which was challenging in its content, it followed a call on Sunday that left me reeling with its implications. How one human being can be with another to the emotional detriment of the other. How one human being can in spite of everything be so selfless. We all make choices and some turn out to be ones that we on reflection should not have made.

I am going to be making some choices myself now and over the next 2 weeks. Mr Impetuous, Mr Strong and Mr Reasonable will now need to help me. It was good to be able to talk though where I am at with one of my greatest friends tonight. It is good to talk. He could hear where I was at not just in my words. That is a pretty powerful skill which I know I have with those I care deeply for. It can sometimes however be a curse. I realise now that I alone, cannot make the difference I once thought I could. There are 3 options at my disposal that I will be considering. Each leads to a different place. Each in itself will impact on others. I now know I know and was fooling myself that I didn't.

'You may never know what results come of your action, but if you do nothing there will be no result' Gandhi said it right. I quoted this in my blog of 11th September and as I was sitting reflecting today on recent events it came back to nudge me gently but forcibly, and was telling me to take notice.

My thoughts tomorrow will be with my beautiful Emily as she has to undergo a minor operation but will be under a general. I made the choice not to be there. I will live with that choice.