Mr Strong

Today Mr Strong has floundered a little. What he knows is that emotional rollercoaster that is life is shared. What he doesnt know is what the outcome will be. Who does really?

What I know is that I spoke to a person today who said that the 30 minutes he had with me was better than the entire previous 2 weeks of conversations with others. That is pretty awesome feedback.

What I know is that a person in one of my teams benefited from me being present in the room talking to them about what could be and instilling much needed confidence in them that life will get better than it is right now as actions lead to consequences. Inaction or waiting for someone else to carry their load will only delay the emergence of them feeling great.

What I know is that another person in one of my teams benefited greatly from the madness that was today. The focus required to produce in very short order documents that will shape the future of others. Juggling multiple actions that will all lead to them being in a better place and let them and I escape the reality of what maybe waiting for us when the office doors close.

What I know is that a senior stakeholder told me I had won a prize. This time a coconut for the delivery of what one of my teams turned around in very short order. And another senior stakeholder wants my support in turning a whole business area around with approximately 1400 people.

So I know when I write this that some may say what an arrogant little tosser. But do you know. I dont really mind. I know that in some small and sometimes significant way I can make a difference. But it was a tough day today.

No one really knows what actions will arise from feelings and emotions. On Sunday I had hoped with all my soul that I had in some way made a difference by listening and understanding. There was laughter in her voice as she described a picture she had bought and where she would hang it, conversation topics for me at a dinner this Friday, and the challenge and cost of maintaining a beauty regime. However the unpredictable reactions of others, well maybe predictable by some, have challenged her emotionally to a greater extent than many had thought. I know how much she has missed laughing. How much she wishes that each day she would be able to wake up and it would be a great day, knowing where she is going and at least having some control over her next 24hrs. Those that know Izzy, know that this is not about control for the sake of control, it is just about having a destination in mind.

It was always going to be a week where emotions for her would run deep. Losing her closest friend on 7th October 6 years ago means that this Thursday, for her will be a day of sadness tinged with hope. Hope that Dak is smiling down on her as he has done every day. That the love and strength of those who are her friends, or have through her connection with me extended their friendship across thousands of miles to her will carry her through this day and onto the next.

I have sent more than my daily text today. I did this so that she knew I was thinking of her more today (if that is actually possible) and hope that she read and listened to them. They were sent from her rock, that is me.
I know I was never part of her plan. I know that being part of her plan now has directly impacted on her experience. The positive is that she knows she can share everything and anything with me. The challenge is sharing everything and anything with me as it is not what she has done before. The challenge for me is to care and love her from a distance and not impact on her plans by doing what my heart has continually told me to do. I want her to be happy every day. I want her to call me with laughter in her voice and I hope that in the next few days this can be achieved.