Be prepared

Whilst the scouting association refer back to Baden Powell for this little statement, I think it is always wise to think ahead. It does not mean you are not living in the present if you think ahead to what might happen. As I sit here thinking about tomorrow and the meetings, calls and activities I need to undertake I am preparing for many eventualities.

I have blogged for the first time in my life and it has been an experience. For those of you who have tripped over this versus being directed, hey it is a mad world out there and I am just another one of those people who have decided to share a stream of consciousness.

For those of you have been directed you may have seen a different side to me, certainly I have over the past 8 days been humbled by the friendships that have been extended, the listening ears and the shoulders that have taken the brunt of the ugly crying. I have been overwhelmed at the support I have had from many people some who are new to my life and some who have been a part of my life for a while and I have truly underestimated how much you care about and for me.

Thank you for reading this, you know who you are and you have been awesome beyond words that I can write here. You have helped me focus on the present, you have provided laughs, smiles and every now and then a rather loud 'really, does this stuff happen to other people, you mean it is not as unique as I thought it was?'

You are never really alone in the world as I have found out, unless you want to be. Sometimes it takes something very major to make you wake up and see, hear, smell, touch, taste the world in a different way.

I have never quite known feelings like this before. I know that the level of vunerability that I have known has been good for me (well I will look back on it and know that but at the moment keep getting told it is). I have opened myself up in a way that is very unfamiliar, it has been a risk to do so and for once in my life an uncalculated one because it felt like the right thing to do. Who knows if it is, it has felt right for me.

Those that judge others by their words alone I feel sadness for. Those that judge others for their selfless acts I understand more. Those that can combine both the words and acts and maintain authenticity I appauld, for it is you who will determine the shape of things to come.