Umm, just think about that. Normally you have a picture and all of the pieces but imagine if you didnt. What would you do. Would you hazard a guess, make assumptions and just cobble it together as best you can. Then stand back and look at and say yup, that makes no sense whatsoever so I will try again...
My life over the last few weeks has been a bit like that. Led by feelings and emotions the like I have never known before (unless you ask my mum who will probably remember when I was last like this but I really cant). Peppered with doubt, vunerability and questions with no answers and then sprinkled with the unknown. All I have known is that I have been missing some pieces to the whole picture of the present but have not been in anyway able to influence what they may turn out to be.
This morning I spent just over an hour and half talking with the one woman in the world I would give my eye teeth to be with right now. She texted me so that we could speak about what the picture really looks like and she gave to me the final pieces so that we could together place them out in front of us to make the picture complete. She was on a beach in Vietnam, I was on pacing the kitchen in Catcott, UK but we could have been standing next to each other looking over the ocean/ orchard.
We have learnt so much about each other. I know how she sees me in her life and she knows how I see her in my life and we will go on together as one. Seperated by distance only. She told me a story of a couple she had met. She is from Poland and is travelling with her male schoolfriend, whilst her husband is at home in Romania. Similar but different.
The 2 things that are probably the most important things to Izzy and I right now, and her new Polish friend and her husband, are love and trust. We do with and to each other.
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